Mohanji probes further. What is the reality of the human condition? Is it possible to determine spiritual stature? What is the connection between the Guru Principle and the evolution of consciousness? A timeless tradition revisited through contemporary controversy. Mohanji leads us beyond mind, ego, and time-space limitations, beyond scandals which contaminate the inner space, to a clearer understanding of the grand merger of all paths into divine unity.
We create our realities. Whatever we fear will appear in our lives. Whatever we love can also be ours, if the intensity is right. Yet, what we fear has a better chance of manifesting in our lives because mind nurtures the negative more than the positive. This only pertains to human beings because our acceptance level of reality and life is much lesser than the beings of other species. So, if we have experienced certain realities in our life which did not lead us to a happy state, it is because of such trapped fears and insecurities or stored negative emotions. We should not blame others for our predicament, if we understand how the law of karma works. Moreover, most people cannot change or evolve into the higher in one lifetime. Metamorphosis is a process. It takes lifetimes of trials and errors to finally catch the ultimate truth from a quagmire of relative truths.
Look at the total population of the world. Let us take 7 Billion people and try to classify them for understanding’s sake. Please understand that this classification is generic and there could be exceptions and mixtures. We look at people in terms of their orientation, such as physical, emotional, intellectual, spiritual and beyond everything. There could be physical, physical-emotional, emotional-intellectual etc. Hence, please consider this generic dissection only as a guideline to understand a point.
At least 35% of the people of the world are “physical” oriented. They indulge in physical, sensory gratification and lead a life of momentary pleasures.
Another 30% live in the emotional plane. They are more inclined to emotional gratification, gossip, sleaze, anxieties, fears so on and so forth. They live with their mind, totally controlled by the mind. These are the people who are hooked to soap operas which churn out nothing but emotions and related suffering. These people always make room for gossips and emotional negativity. They always react to life and call themselves victims of circumstances. They are more prone to psychological disorders.
About 20% of the total population lives in the intellectual plane. Their gratification is through their intellect. They do not have much to do with physical or emotional gratification. The so-called intellectuals such as thinkers, planners, strategists, scientists and all other intellectuals fit into this category. They consume knowledge, as well many other intellectual methods of self-gratification. They usually feel much superior than the other categories, ignorant of the fact that the concepts that they are consuming are binding them eternally. Many of them are self-centered and even cut off from the society. Many of them do not care for other beings pain or suffering. Many churn out theories using their brain which pushes development, but not always real progress. Most creations adds material comforts at the cost of alienation from the nature which directly affect every aspects of immunity that protects physical and psychological existence on earth. Many of the medicines and gadgets that man made have harmed man-kind. Many creations of man has destroyed the earth. Many of them are non-productive too. They just live in their own cloisters.
About 10% can be considered as spiritual. They are exploring spirituality and this interests them a lot. But, they are still only exploring. Many become escapists in the name of spirituality. Many fall into depression mode and either withdraw or repeat the same thing over and over again, without much benefit to themselves or others. Many do not know what they are looking for and of course, where to find it. Many fall into traps of rituals, predatory religions and cults.
The remaining 5% actually attain the highest, beyond the duality of existence. The rest fall either backwards or forwards. All the physical, emotional as well as intellectual members are also exploring the unknown through spirituality. But, they have limitations. In the case of the physical, it would be transactional worships for the sake of some benefit from God, with complete non-understanding. Most of the “physical” people queue up in front of temples and at the doorsteps of astrologers to pacify their insecurities. Emotion oriented people will either have blind faith rooted in devotion or follow others blindly. Emotion clarified is devotion, which can take one to the ultimate merger. Very few attain the capacity for total surrender and acceptance of everything that happens in their life with total willingness, endurance and non-resistance as the gift of God. This level is achieved through higher awareness, which is achieved by constant contemplation on the energy that runs our system which is also called – GOD. The power of all the great saints have been this surrender and acceptance with no doubts about themselves, their path, their guru and their destination. This is not easy to come to. The intellectual path is even more difficult because those on that path need reasoning for everything, which slows them down tremendously. They would face duality much more than anybody. Doubts and analysis plague them often. Acceptance would be lesser in them. They try to understand the workings of the subtle through their gross intellect. This is as tedious as making a camel cross through the eye of a needle. The spiritual types have actually crossed over many barriers such as the physical, emotional and intellectual walls. And they are determined to cross over to the realms of the subtle. But, they also could be controlled by their egos and sense of achievement, just like their cousins of other categories. Ego lurks in every state. It appears and disappears without calling. Ego is a permanent ingredient of human existence. Thus, out of the 10% spiritually inclined, 5% actually attain the highest. Thus is the case of the spiritual journey. It is not easy. All paths are good. All paths run parallel to the same destination. So, there is no need to worry whether a path is right or wrong or whether a guru is good or bad. All that liberates you time and again is good for you. All that liberates you from each level and leaves you liberated is good for you. Anything that binds you is bad for you, irrespective of whether it is a person, a place, a situation or an action. You are born free and should die free. Terrestrial existence is temporary. You cannot be bound here. Body is borrowed from the earth for the sake of experiencing earth just like you hire a rent-a-car when you go to a new city to travel through the city and do your errands. In our case, the soul has borrowed this body for this journey on earth. Karma is the agenda for the journey. Senses, mind, ego and intellect are the operating tools or navigation guides. Body must be given back when the job is over. So, living a liberated existence here and now is very important. Wasting time on the bed-time stories of other people has no value in our journey. All have such stories. There is darkness in every corridor. There is good and bad in everyone. Only those who have never sinned have the eligibility to throw stones. And those who have never sinned will never throw stones either, because they know very well that throwing stones at anything or anybody will pull them down for sure and one karmic being has no right to judge another.
I read that Amma herself responded to the criticisms against herself and her organization. She said three things in a very polite and matter-of-fact language:
- Many children come to me with many expectations, large expectations. When these are not fulfilled, they turn around and criticize or scandalize. Children should not become angry like this. Anger is definitely a weakness. It is negative and can pull a person to the depths of negativity. Patience is strength. Children should exercise patience and not negative emotions.
- Amma is an open book. Our ashram is also an open book. Any financial transaction happening here is recorded and filed with the government. Anyone who has a doubt can verify it anytime.
- I never call people or ask people for favors. I have never asked anyone to come to me and serve me. All have come voluntarily. In the same way, all have the freedom to leave too. Why do you complain?
This shows the stature of Amma. Absolutely calm amidst a storm! This shows the stature of the individual. Totally unaffected and unperturbed! This also means that she is innocent. If there was any speck of pollution, anxiety or fear, it would have been visible. She is not a politician to mask all crimes with expertise and still go to people and ask for electing them to power again, as if nothing ever happened. The calm declares her purity.
Again, it would be a grave mistake to assess the stature of a saint by the yardsticks of his or her disciples. Usually, very few disciples could rise up to the stature of their master to receive the mantle from him or her. They will all be operating in different levels of consciousness. So, never measure the stature of a guru by looking at his disciples. Guru has accomplished the highest. Disciples are with the guru because they are aspiring to reach the state of their guru, if not the stature. So, they cannot be considered the same. State can be bought with money. Stature has to be earned. Stature is a state that cannot be bought. It takes a lot of efforts to become totally detached. When a person is totally detached, whether he drinks alcohol or smokes (like Shankar Maharaj, Shirdi Sai Baba), sleeps with women or visits brothels, it does not make any difference in their still state of mind. Stillness can never be disturbed by an activity once the saint attains it. Common man cannot understand the freedom that stillness of the mind or the mind-less state provides. They judge based on expressions and they fail to touch the real because of their mental blocks. Not being able to touch the real while existing is one of the real tragedies of a terrestrial existence.
Sometimes the saint observes silence amidst the storm of scandals. This is not because of his inability to speak out. This is because he is not pressured to speak. He is objective. He speaks only when he has to. He will not counter anyone’s emotions because he has nothing to do with it. Mind is still. Often, it so happens that the saint foresee the calamity and also use it to shake the tree of their own set up. This could help them shed many a dry leaves which does not help the tree. This will also help shed the tamas (inertia) among their disciples and swing them into positive action. So, silence could be because of foresight and a positive purpose. A scandal always works as a positive filter. It filters away the feeble, unsure or fickle and retains those who are truly connected. Hence a scandal is a good idea as a filter.
True Saints are soft targets in the gross world. They are usually defenseless. Many of those who have money, power, position and contacts gets away with anything. But, there are those to whom money flows because of their sheer stature and subtlety. They will never use their position, power, money or connections to save themselves. They will never manipulate minds. They are selfless. They are immortal while in the body and keeps the body only out of compassion towards their followers. The gross world which cannot see the subtlety of a saint always pumps bullets of scandals into their defenseless lives. The saint loses nothing. He was never bothered about his body anyway. He would just leave the body behind and expand into the ever present super expanded consciousness well beyond the body. The loss is for the world. Every generation has had many soft targets like this through the history of mankind.
The established religions, priests and preachers with acquired knowledge always become terribly insecure about a true saint who is connected to the source. They manipulate minds against the true saint. The saint does nothing to protect himself. He is completely surrendered to the will of the universe, a dharmic existence, almost like a being in the wild. From birth, until death, they are surrendered to the will of the nature. They cannot manipulate, accumulate, store or be greedy. They consume only what is essential for them. Even if there is excess or abundance of anything, it is distributed evenly for the needy. They only know how to give. They give all that they have. It adds up insecurities in the minds of the established priests and religious heads who sow fear to harvest people. Fear conquers minds much more easily than love. It is a very effective tool.They use the people to secure their own future, ensure power and maintain supremacy. A true saint has nothing to do with these. They are crucified, as they are innocent, soft targets. And since sex scandal gets maximum media attention as well as audience, that is the best ammunition against an unarmed saint. If you study the history of most of the scandals, you will see the thread of this phenomenon deeply embedded in every incident.
If expectations are not fulfilled, it leads to anger. Anger leads to need for justification. Justification demands need for companionship or isolation. In order to avoid guilt, people make themselves believe or convince themselves that what they thought, spoke and did was the right thing and they deserve attention from others. They become heavily insecure with their own proposition. Some people (usually of the same feathers) will buy their story and sympathize with them and give them company. Some will avoid them. These are all aspects of the play or maya or relative truth. Truth will always shine forth even if the cloud of doubts obscure the truth temporarily. Be aware of it and stay clear. No true guru who is connected to the source needs anyone or any kind of support. They are in the market place out of compassion for human kind as well as other beings. They are walking reminders for you as to who you really are. They represent the state which is your destination. You need them to be a road sign or a reminder to reach their stature. Be reasonable with yourself. By scandalizing a guru, you are destroying your own chance for the highest. This is because you are destroying the guru principle (guru tattwa) which you carry within yourself. You are free to be with any guru and you are also free to be away from them too. However, let your detachment from the guru arise because of your accomplishment in terms of higher state, not because you have differences in opinions, which is essentially a mind factor. If you want to know the stature of your guru, you need to go beyond your mind.
From separation to oneness
It is important to respect every individual at every time, even if the person is harmful to society. If a person is harmful, use the law of the land to deal with it and save the society. We should never judge or condemn another. This will affect us more than the other. When poison for the arrow is manufactured in your house, remember, your house has more poison than what the tip of the arrow carries to others. Your inner space should remain pure. Using that state of purity, observe the contributions delivered by the saint to the world. In the case of Amma, how many people has she touched in this lifetime! How many have been given hope and solace by Amma! How many has been healed! How many people attained fulfillment! How many charity activities! How many acts of kindness! How many beautiful instances of guidance and teachings! This is what we should cherish. This is what we should nurture. We should look at the value of a saint who lives in the society with people in primarily two aspects – A. The clarity in her teachings. B. The charity that she does. In short – THE RELEVANCE! The physical and spiritual relevance. Let us never ignore that.
A request to all those who talk ill about amma or to all the people who talk badly about saints in general, please check how their life has added value to the world! How many people have been benefited! It is easy to live and die in one’s own cubicle of personal agendas, selfish pleasures, ownership, possessiveness, concepts, fears, personal family-ship, happiness and sorrows. When you decide to live your freedom, there is bound to be opposition. Those who cannot walk the path or those who cannot understand the path will certainly create road blocks. Do we have to budge? Do we have to change tracks? Live your own truth and discard the borrowed relative truths. Your experience and your truth has much more value in your life than other’s opinions. If you clearly understand that, it would be a great favor that you would be doing to yourself. In the path of dissolution, in the very end, when the disciple merges with the consciousness of the Guru, every relationship ends. There is no duality to maintain a relationship. There will be no Guru or disciple. But, cutting the relationship before total dissolution, would be a terrible mistake as well as a tragedy for the seeker even though it never affects any guru. In the beginning of the journey, a disciple will only see the superficial differences. It takes a lot of time and effort to see the unity of consciousness. There should be patience, perseverance, conviction and commitment. Otherwise, disciples will get stuck with the superficial. The problem with the superficial is that it only provides comparisons, infatuations and eventual disassociation if not depression. The agony of separation is usually terrible in the beginning. But, as the disciple comes closer and closer to the Guru’s consciousness, beyond the façade of superficial expressions and image, the pain slowly gets converted into bliss. Finally, when the merger of consciousness happens, there is only bliss, oneness. There is no separation, nor the related confusion. So, in the end, even the image, words and expressions will dissolve when you become the Guru’s consciousness. This is what we call totality or complete liberation. Here by the word Guru, I mean one who is connected to the source not one who is imparting acquired knowledge. Be aware of that.
In the beginning of the journey, there are only differences. The mind only recognizes the differences, the comparisons, and the superficial. When the disciple gradually approaches the unity of consciousness, the mind is forced to dissolve. Mind must dissolve to experience unity of consciousness. A struggle happens – often a bitter struggle, a war. Mind brings forth everything that could create alienation. This is a very confusing time. Mind asks you to run away and save yourself. Mind objects to the idea of the merger of consciousness and counters it with your deep-rooted or deep-set fears such as death, destruction, wrong paths, wrong gurus, fears of the unknown, so on and so forth. The real war is between the truth and illusion or between the soul and the mind. Mind likes to keep its comfort zones. Mind likes to keep its identities. Soul wants liberation from the illusory existence. Illusions capture us more than the soul. Soul exists in a liberated state always, which we will only know when we touch or feel the soul. Illusions keep us blinded from the truth. Guru represents the truth. The fears, doubts and illusions that the mind carries immerses the consciousness of the Guru in delusion, by projecting the superficial aspects such as the form and habits of the guru. This is why we discuss more about the superficial aspects of a Guru rather than his or her teachings and guidance. We are looking at the disparities or differences much more than the unity in consciousness. We are more connected to the terrestrial aspects of a living guru, including his wealth, sexuality, attire, mannerisms, etc, rather than the projection of the supreme consciousness or his connection to the source that actually made him Guru material. Masters who are connected to the source, shines. Nobody cloud can permanently take away the glory of the sun!
Why are we so bound by time and differences? It is because we are identifying and operating in time zones and not absoluteness. The body has a duration and that duration is measured in time. Having a body keeps us hooked to time. Hence it is essential to search for and understand the timeless in us. The timeless is our real state. That which is absolute in us is what we are, and not the body which is bound by time. The search begins in the mind and ends in the mind-less state. The very material that we use our mind to explore can only be understood when the mind is absent. This is something which every seeker should understand. Mind is the barrier between man and the absolute. Mind includes ego and intellect too. When we merge with the absolute there is no need for the mind because there is nothing apart from you. You have nothing more to “know” or “understand”. You are that! Tat Twam Asi. So, who is afraid of the singular TRUTH? Who is afraid of truth at all? Your mind. You are not your mind. Be aware of that.
Appreciate their love and care
Why do we need the proximity of great saints at all? Why do we crave for it? The reason is that they represent the peace that has been eluding our lives since lifetimes. They represent our original state. They represent what we could be or what we are already, which our mind has hidden from us for so long. If the mind gets connected to a guru either due to infatuation or helplessness, the relationship cannot mature into unity of consciousness. When you are unable to cross the first mile of your road home, how will you ever reach your bed to rest upon? The proximity of the guru should reflect as your inner stillness, peace, strength, resolution, so on and so forth. Usually, a true guru will reflect your own state. Their reflection of anger mirrors your pent up anger; their overflowing love reflects your bottled up or unfulfilled love. They could even reflect your sexuality, hunger and all other personality traits. When the guru operates in unity consciousness, he or she becomes what appears before them, because they have already dissolved their mind and just honestly reflect what you are to yourself! This understanding would help a seeker when they approach a guru, provided they stop measuring their guru using their mind, including ego and intellect. The proximity of great saints is a constant warning, a constant reflection, constant removal of personality traits and also constant burning and churning of blocking negativities that distract one in the path of God. Many people prefer a guru who is not in his/her body because they cannot handle the personality of the living guru or they get terribly disillusioned by the living guru’s personality traits. The dead master is easier because what is in your mind about him is your reality. What he was or what he could have possibly done if alive does not matter anymore. The teachings, often expressed through others and not directly by the master himself, and their personal interpretation can easily provide a comfort zone for the confused seeker. They cannot think of changes within themselves. They would rather change the guru! A living guru eats, drinks, sleeps like any other man. A living guru may wake you up, even rudely, from your pretensions and fears. If this is a problem, I would suggest staying away from a living guru. True gurus are honesty incarnates. They only want the best for their disciples. Often, the disciples are not ready for the best. What you already are, you do not know. Mind has kept you disillusioned. When the mask of mind is removed, you will know what you already are, and the difference between what you ‘thought’ about yourself and what you actually are! Huge difference! Huge awakening! Here, the master is a road sign. He or she just guides as per your path. He never intrudes, yet will slap your hand when you are indulging in anything that prevents your progress in the path, whether your mind likes it or not. Comparing a true master who has dissolved his mind, to that of a seeker operating 100% from his mind is an absolutely wasted exercise.
Hence, spirituality needs acceptance and spontaneity. It needs understanding. In summary, live and let live. If crimes are committed by someone, or by a group, inform the legal authorities. Always exercise restraint and approach everything with caution and not reaction. Respond spontaneously and do not react violently.
All that any saint or master who is connected to the source does is accept support (including monetary) from those who can afford, and then pass it on to cater for those who cannot afford. They are creating a balance in society. They are diluting the imbalance between the rich and the poor. They lead by example. When such a saint’s living time becomes more valuable and they are provided with comforts to maintain them, this is only natural. When their horizon increases and more are benefited by their presence, they will have to do more to make themselves available to the world, irrespective of whether it is a fast car or a private jet. Everything depends on the value they add to the society. It applies to every human being and not only a saint. A CEO of a conglomerate will have to use sophisticated gadgets to run his empire. If a person who runs a small unit envies him and suggests that he should be simpler, it is absolute ignorance. Likewise, money and wealth comes to a saint as per the relevance of the saint to the world. However, they use it to give back more to the world. They hardly use anything for themselves because their terrestrial needs are minimal.This enhances their compassion and makes it more effective. We must appreciate their love and care and not be jealous of their facilities. As per requirements, facilities will happen. It is absolutely right to be a contemporary and use all the contemporary gadgets especially if the mission involves the public or the world. If the saint is sitting in the quiets of a cave or mountain, none of these matters anyway. The contemporary saint may not be even demanding it from anyone. It comes to them, as I had stated earlier. They are the people who could have anything, but needs nothing. They will never be understood in two dimensional class divides such as have’s and have not’s. This is the simple truth of existence.
Amma, from what I have understood, singularly supported almost 30,000 students post tsunami in Japan. She is said to have contributed more than what the UN or anyone did post tsunami in Indonesia. She built 100 crore worth of houses for Tsunami victims in India, which no organization, politician, spiritual leader, political party or government did. She is definitely using her wealth for good causes. Which politician who is hoarding public funds have we heard of doing anything close to what amma has done for the world? Do they share even a tea with a poor person? What are you complaining about? What right does anyone have to complain about Amma? What are you worried about? What are you afraid of? Her sheer stature is attracting people to her. No amount of envy can change that.
Finally, “The good that a man does is interred with his bones. The evil survives his death.” (William Shakespeare Julius Caesar ACT 3 Scene 2) All the good things a man does are easily forgotten. Only the wrongs are spoken about! This is true through time since the history of mankind. We are eternal gossip mongers, one way or the other. This is why we are more interested in Jesus’ sex life than his glorious teachings. This is why we are more interested in the private lives of all the public figures. This is why sleaze sells. We have always been like this. We bury 1000 good things that a man did for the world along with his body and talk about a few follies or acts of frailty through time. I was told that one channel alone used 384 hours to telecast the news when Shankaracharya of Kanchi was arrested. The same channel aired the news of his acquittal for 3 minutes! This is just an example of how negativity sells. Sleaze has it’s evergreen market. Buying into gossips, ignoring our experience is an absolutely useless exercise. Cherish the acts of glory and discard the acts of negativity. If a person is harmful to society, pass him or her on to the hands of law with evidence. There need be no emotions about it. Those who ate salt must drink water. There should not be any compromise. Character assassination is the sign of the weak and is a cowardly act. If there is disagreement, it should be discussed face to face and dissolved in good time, because our inner space should always remain clean and uncontaminated as we walk towards the path of total liberation. It is easy to contaminate the inner space, and difficult to clean it. Beware.
Infinite Love, Unconditionally
12 thoughts on “Who is afraid of the TRUTH? (Part 2)”
Thank You, my dearest Master, for protecting this innocent woman!
People don’t listen to their hearts…
And thank You for all Your the words of wisdom, as always.
This is so beautiful Mohanji! Thank you very much!
So Nice Mohanji…” Appreciation is the highest form of prayer, for it acknowledges the presence of good wherever you shine the light of your thankful thoughts. ” – RK ( USA Kalakka Brother ) Chennai
Thank You Mohanji for such clarity! We are deeply grateful!
Such open discussion and clarity of thoughts. Loved it
Thank you for the post.
A heap of confusion is cleared and with continued Amrit varsha from you, we shall feel more Energised. Thank you, Sir.
Thank you for your light master. I would just add my personal experience with Bramacharya Shubamrita, Amma’s disciple and representative, during our interview in Belgrade. Mr Shubamrita radiated so much love and warmth, that if I was supposed to judge Master by his/her disciple, I would only say: Genuine. Our conversation lifted me up and fueled my hearth with love.
Amma is a living saint, her true disciples are radiating love and that is a real truth.
Bless you Master, and Love you eternaly!
om sai ram
I am a devotee of shirdi Sai baba and consider him as my guru. I feel His presence and grace in my life all the time. My one and only desire is to be one with my Sai. I want to be the dust under his feet and stay there till the end of time and beyond. Mohanji please bless me so that I can be one with Sai. I try to meditate but can’t seem to concentrate for long. Mohanji please bless me so that I can be one with Sa Sent from my iPhone
Dear mohanji I feel that there is a divine and grand reason for me to know you. Let me tell you how the plan was well executed by my ‘’BIG DADDY SHIRDI SAI BABA’’. I am now 18 years old and came to know of spirituality in june 2013.When I was 12 or 13 old a sudden thought always enveloped in my mind that why I was here. As taught by our parents and society that you must earn a lots of money and earn huge name and fame and become a typical ‘’bada aadmi’’. But I don’t know how but always I was made to realize that surely this is not for what my life is made and that there was something more to know. Slowly time spent remembering loads of book and getting deluded by worldly honours like getting first rank in class and making my parents happy for few seconds. When I was 16yrs and in my 11th class I was diagnosed with diabetes and my family just started to cry and say that now I cannot enjoy and eat good food. But I always thought otherwise that happiness which is not permanent is of no use and then as the divine plan was laid I came to know of Eckhart tolle. I read autobiography of a yogi and then there was an urge in me to know more and more. As a result I read many books like bhagvad gita, the power of now by Eckhart Tolle BE AS YOU ARE the teachings of ramana maharishi, RIBHU GITA,WHO AM I,SAI SATCHARITRA and few more. After this I could sense a strong urge within me to know more but then it was suppressed by my family as they wanted me to move in the rat race of world with people who themselves didn’t know why they are here and thus I was made to enter in the race to crack iit jee which is a highly competitive exam in india. With all this going through whenever I got time I used to read about saints of india. On 15 Jan 2014 when I completed my 18 years, I was in SHIRDI pouring my heart to baba to please bless me with His Divine grace and show me a way to reach the infinite. After that my life has completely changed as I started to do parayana of SHRI SAI SATCHARITRA and came to know of applying the science of self to daily living. I many a times enjoyed the bliss of bhakti as I was firmly rooted in it. In mid march I came to condition that tears flowed my eyes as soon as I remembered my baba and then I could experience miracles of him to encourage my urge for self realisation. Then I came to know on 1st april of SRI RAMANA MAHARISHI by the grace of sai. Soon I understood the complex nature of self with much ease as if sai himself was explaining it to me. Then I started the marga of vichara and concentrated on HEART of all existence which was within me. I came to know that knowledge of self and self realization is very subtle and can be attained only by the grace of divine masters. Also I was overwhelmed when I came to know that the day of birth of mine and Ramana Mharishi was same i.e 01:00 am and that both of us were born on Monday, Shiva’s day. While he was born on arudra darshan I was born on makar sankranti. My mother told me that when I was born I was smiling!!! and also on that day heavy rainfall and storm thundered and that she used to get many dreams of various masters and divine serpents protecting and loving me. With all this my faith confirmed that there was a major and divine hand of sai behind all this and my way is not of the common ones. I surrendered myself completely to Sai and started living blissfully a life of introspecton and tried to be aware of self which was quite difficult because of the rat race mentioned above. After a few days I felt a strange sense of force from within and thus I started to crave for going to Himalayas . I think it was due to my increased rate of looking within that I didn’t care for the world as they were all in me. Also I had full faith in sai that wherever I would go he will be with me and would take care of me. As told before I get a lot of time for introspecton as I go out for walk after meals due to my FRIENDLY ILLNESS. Yes it is friendly because by it I could control my sense and craving for good food . For 15 days daily after dinner I would go on the lonely road and cry while walking. I did not cry willingly rather it was involuntary perhaps due to my love for sai and Himalayas and also because disattachment and vairagya from the world were at their peak in me. Always I would request sai to take me away from my body i.e destroy my I am the body idea or individual existence. Then 10 days before I came to know about you by your blog SAI and ‘’I’’. I then read more about you and found that you and I were very very similar in many aspects. I wrote so much because in my home or in society there is no person that can realize or understand my feelings. They think that I am running from my responsibilities so I want to become a sadhu. But I try my utmost to tell them that I am not doing all this myself as real ‘’I’’ do nothing and all this is a divine plan played by sai and I am just an instrument. I don’t like to look at people many a times and feel a strong urge to close my eyes while walking also as there is lot more to see inside. PLEASE come to GORAKHPUR as per your designed schedule and just see and bless me once with shaktipat and advice me for my path. Also iit jee is coming near and is scheduled to be on 25th may but I donot study much for it because I think studying is not as important as grace of my baba. I am very sure that I am going to be selected in iits but all that stuff is in vain if I donot meet you at GORAKHPUR as per the schedule. Also I am going to shirdi for 8 days with my mother to ask for his final permission so that I drop out my studies and become what I am supposed to be. Please guide me and give me the blessing of shaktipat so that I can make further progress in the path of pathlessness……………… Also if you can by your causeless mercy encourage me to study and perform well because iit exam is near and parents are expecting a good rank from me which certainly I can make but due to lack of interest I am unable. Please REPLY ME as soon as possible within 2 or 3days or otherwise I will break heart of my parents.
OM SAI RAM.
I don’t know what is aired in media or talked about. But what is expressed here is very sensible. And if any body wants to evolve and progress one has to listen to wise people and follow their teachings/guidance. People should have right understanding and impartial view. The purity of guru is instrumental in cleansing the garbage carried in the mind of a person. The love of a guru is always pure and granting joy , imparting courage , bestowing clarity through enlightenment to one who surrenders to the guru completely. The worthiness and benefit of a guru to humanity can not be comprehended unless one is really refined.
My appreciations and pranams to shri mohan ji.